INFATUATED? Definitely!

It was November 3, 2010 when I was convinced that I finally had found the one girl that I’ve been looking for. A Relationship. Oh.. been a while since I used that word last. Well today, I found out that there has been nothing. A HARD lesson that I needed to learn, or should’ve learnt along time ago. I tend to start late LOL.

Part of me is really sad to find out about the fact and the other part of me is really glad, cause I finally found the answer to my doubt all along. I said all along, because my gut feeling and my “observation skills” told me so, but my stubborn ass just needed to find out for myself. Am I mad? Angry? A little bit, yes! A lot? Maybe. At this point, I can't tell yet.

This is the email that she wrote to me:

Hi Steve,

You are mad at me for not replying your text message earlier. Seriously I didn't get your text until 7:30... not because I didn't check my phone, simply because my TextFree notification didn't come through until 1 hour and 20 minutes later. I actually wondered why you hadn't called.

I am sorry that I didn't put enough effort into this relationship and I was never focused. I gave a lot of thoughts to things over the weekend, and I decided to make the trip. I know I told you otherwise last week. I was terrified by the thought of losing you then, and I am now. I need to go because I've made the commitment and I have to see it through. I was never the person who would confront my issues. I am usually the run-away one when it comes to making decision and confronting people with the truth. But with you, I want to be 100% absolutely truthful because you mean a lot to me. I didn't choose to be with you because of convenience; I didn't choose to be with you because of boredom; I didn't choose to be with you because I needed companionship. I choose to be with you because of your energy, your bluntness, your wit, our similarities and most importantly our synergies. I guess now you are probably asking me why I still need to go for the trip given everything is wonderful with us. Sorry, I don't have the answer to that question. The only reason I can think of would be - 7 weeks ago I was convinced that I was in love with him and that he was the one. This could be the worst decision in my life, and you will probably never talk to you again. But before I am finishing writing this email, I need you to know that I've given you my true self. I was sincere to you and to myself.

x

At the time, I thought I’ve found what LOVE was, but my wiser friends (Big G and Little T) has told me, its INFATUATION. On my part towards her.

I just proved them RIGHT (dammit guys!! Thanks :) )

But out of all this, now I can say what is the purpose in this thing called LIVE. Where before going through this “fake relationship" aka "non-dairy creamer” it’s something that I’ve always asked myself. Well, now I found the answer to my own question and it feels great and satisfying: TO FIND HAPPY-NESS.

I know boys don’t cry and some of you probably have not even seen my soft side (Unlesss you’re my family, I don’t think you know me or seen me at my best or at my worst). But this girl has made me the happiest man ever and the saddest man ever within the past weeks, where for others probably take years to get to know me at that level. Now that I found out its over….Phew… all I can say is that, the (emotional) rollercoaster has stopped and its time to get off and get onto the next ride. And I should be going off that little wooden ramp and shitty little stairs with big smile on my face for the excitement that I just had and the enthusiasm to pick my next ride, so I would get my money worth it in this trip called LIFE.

Remember peeps, we are not here for a long time, but we are here for a GOOD TIME (which bring us HAPPY-NESS)....

Another thing I would like to add, I'm really glad that I went into this "Theme Park" with a lot of people that are showing me an abundance amount of love and support (not only on this matter/issue). Without all of you (I couldn't even mention all, cause its too much to list) I would be nothing and I would be falling and failing aloong-long time ago. So I would like to thank you for bringing the "gorilla glue", holding the little pieces, and finding the lost ones under the carpet and hold it all together and to keep ME as one defect, but we'll make it work product.

Road Trippin' to the Duurrtayy Hotlanta.

I have never been a fan of doing road trips or just staying in a vehicle for a long period of time. I would start to lose my mind if you put me in a plane ride over six hrs. I'm talking about walls closing in, and getting all moody. Yeah.. not the best of me.

But there's another side of me that has the urge to try anything and everything at least once. So when the boys texted me about doing a road trip to ATL, of course I say yes. hah..

So that Friday after work, I got home and got packing. Before I even finished, the bros already at the house. Chilled a bit, and left. I was soo unprepared it wasn't funny. Only had the clothes that I had on me, a set of going out clothes along with some necessities, like toothbrush, hairgel and cologne. I knew I was forgetting some other stuff, but I just couldn't remember.

These fools had not had any food since that afternoon, so we had to stop by at Popeyes and let these nig-nogs grub a little.



All full!! time to hit the road!!!

NOT!!! Someone had a bright idea that it would make the trip a lot faster if we get something to drink on the way. I mean, we got 10 hrs or so of driving ahead of us, so we had to make it goes by faster somehow, right?!?


Mr. Budweiser definitely helped to ease off the pain of 10 hrs of driving even tho it only lasted a little over half an hr :)

The effect lasted for awhile and it helped me remember what I forget to bring. A pair of shorts, my blackberry charger and a realization that I never told any of my family member that I'm on my way to Atlanta (so I had to called my mom and tell her that I had been on the roads for over 2 hrs).






I know the boys for years now, but doing long trips like this helped us getting to know ea other a little closer. Such as who got the smallest bladder and made us stopped a little more than we supposed to. lol

Long story short, within 5 hrs of driving and a little hydroplaning which was close to wipe out Jbro's Corolla, we weren't even half way. So by 2am we had to look for a place to stay. First, I had to do a shout out to Steve Jobs, cause without 3 iPhones in the car, this wouldn't be easy. We searched for the nearest hotel in the middle of nowhere Carolina within 2 mins.

First, Sally called up Holiday Inn, cause that the first hotel comes to mind thanks to Snoop Dogg and Chingy. Made a left right off of the highway, we saw Holliday Inn and a nicer hotel right next door. Rang the door bell, and an old Indian lady came out with her pajamas and all pissed off cause we ruined her good dream at 3 o'clock in the morning. She walked to the counter incoherently and greet us while wiping off the saliva off of her chin. Naaassty!! lol

Well the story gets better, being an Indian that Sally is, he felt the need to show who's the Chief around here, so the battle of Indians begun with me by his side. The Lady told us it would be 60bux/nite to stay at her place and Sally told her Holliday Inn gave us 50 bux/nite (it was actually 70bux/nite when we called heheh...) So The Lady still incoherent quickly cut down her price to 55 bux/nite and thinking that it would be for 2 people and its not even going to be a full nite. We tried to hustle some more but I gave a signal to Sally that I need to crash ASAP!!
So we ended the battle right there, grabbed Jbro and Sbro from the car and went back to the lobby. I guess by this time The Lady she already got her coffee and her head level, she realized that we just shit on her and f'ed her up on the deal. She starting to freak out saying that we got it waaay too cheap for the agreed price. She started foaming about we had 4 people instead of 2 etc... But we just laughed it off all the way to the room cause we just showed her who is the Chief.

We got this guy waking up everyone in the morning.

He got a little shutter happy with my camera

then we all realized that he's a camera whore lol

Poor guy needs more sleep.



We learned the next day that shithole called Thomasville.

Literally there was nothing there other than a gas station and two hotels.

Got direction from a local lady to go to this place for breakfast. She told us it was the best place around the area. If she wasn't bullshitting, I can tell you that people in Thomasville don't know what good food is.... Shit was cheap tho!! 4bux avg for a plate.


Back on the road!

Like every relationship...

First we were friends...

Then we grew closer and become lovers :)


Sally throwing the WeesstSidee to the group of Indians in the white car. They ignored him.. f'in randi!!


Six hours later, we made it to ATL.

Just like we needed.

We checked in at 3pm and chilled for about an hour before we started wondering around downtown ATL. First impression, since it was my first time, I like it! The whole city is better than expected.... I'll get into this next time.

I dunno why, but I think this is a cool pic. Never seen a giant hot sauce before. lol

Random Shiznits.

I have not much to say cause I have been busy with two jobs and getting enough rest. On my spare time, or unwinding time after work, I usually troll around several forums and blogs just to help me relax and chill-yes I like to do a little bit of reading and writing to keep my mind off of things. There are two articles that I like from this week, and the reason I decided to postit because I feel that it aligns with my values and I want to share it with y'all (in TK's voice lol).

From DCSB.net: The World is in Trouble

We are in trouble...

The population of this country is 300 million.

160 Million are retired.

That leaves 140 million to do the work.

There are 85 million in school.

Which leaves 55 million to do the work.

Of this there are 35 million employed by the federal government.

Leaving 20 million to do the work.

2.8 million are in the armed forces preoccupied With killing Osama Bin-Laden.

Which leaves 17.2 Million to do the work.

Take from that total the 15.8 Million people who work for state and city
governments. And that leaves 1.4 million to do the work.

At any given time there are 188,000 people in hospitals.

Leaving 1,212,000 to do the work.

Now, there are 1,211,998 people in prisons.

That leaves just two people to do the work.

You and me.

And there You are,

Sitting on your ass,

At your computer, reading jokes..

Nice. Real nice.



And this other article is a food for thought, cause I been seeing some people who get tangled up with their vision, mission and goals, they forgot about the closest people around them who made it all possible. They get sucked-in into this alter ego that grows in their head, which make them into someone who is bigger than the world itself. They feel that everyone and everything does not matter. The only thing that matters are themselves and the obligation of the people around them to give them respect that they deserve. A little that they know: "The World owes you nothing" - Unknown.

I am lucky enough that I am not surrounded by those type of people. There are some group of people that I see on regular basis who have different views and I am really grateful they are around me. They treat me like a family even though I have known them for only a short period of time.

And this one article/blog baffles me, cause this guy has everything he has in the world, and yet he stays humble and able to keep his foot on the ground regardless how successful he is. He is definitely the definition of that song by Kevin Rudolf, "I made it".

Taken from IF and Co. Ben Baller's Blog (http://ifandco.com/wordpress/)

I know it’s been a little light on the blog side, but man, I’m on a different map, agenda and overall page these days…. the last 2 months again(I know I sound monotonous) have been amazing. I spend a lot of time working, but less time looking or searching for more work, just staying busy with what I have in front of me and if it doesn’t come my way money wise, I’m not tripping. I spend that time with my family. My mom and pops are getting real old, it’s crazy also to think that I was trying to kill myself grinding so hard so that if I had to raise a full family I wouldn’t have to worry…. well shit, my parents raised 3 kids with waaaaaaay less money than I make overall even considering the economic changes and times, etc… so I’m not worried about that. I’m just living my life and trying to be a better person.

I don’t like to think of too much the negative, I do try to look at shit with the bottle half full, but damn there are some real dumbass people still out there and I might have been one of them at times, but on purpose which almost makes it worse. I never in my life have or understand how another man or woman can live through a day thinking about another person they have no idea about or never met and spent quality or even any time with. shit baffles my mind with the levels of ignorance and to make things worse, they’re so miserable and in denial with their own faults, they throw stones and then hide their hands. smh…. is it the parenting? I’d rather slap the shit out of my kid for anonymously dissing anyone while overlook any of the other basic rules; but again, that’s just me. what you see or read or hear is not from anyone elses mouth or anyone elses side of the story but mine. I’m not perfect, never will be, don’t care to be; I always see myself as like “there is always room for improvement” no human being is divine, we all make mistakes. I just know that If I was a better man this week than I was last week, I did good. I’m not trying to be better than YOU, I just want to be a better person than I am already each day and repeat daily.

I gotta get up early and get some work in, but I wanted to share some non materialistic type shit with my readers.
I obviously do this from time to time.

My car will not be at Formula Drift in Long Beach today(friday) or tomorrow Sat. but I will be at Formula Drift all day Saturday, walking around, mostly around the NOS energy drink booth and filming random things….

btw, Mark Arsenal, I will slap you when I see you because I know you are going to be there, and they won’t call you FATLACE, they will call you FAT LIP! trust!

shout out to my homey Jimmy Boi who went from thugging to blogging…. congrats on the new blog.

I’ll try to ustream chat with y’all more often…. the other day’s chat was awesome, we had lmfao/bep family, Ryan Grant, Damon Elliot, Jonas Bevacqua, some fine ass women who I won’t mention unless they feel like they want to and most importantly, my readers or followers on twitter.

peace,
2 fingers
sometimes it’s 1 finger though

but always 1 love

Seafood Sunday

Pretty nice week. Started off slow, but it progresses. Not going to post up the weekdays detail that put a big smile on my face, but let me say that I get to hang out with one of my fav. person for two days in a row and on top of that, I get something going, which might have a possibility of advancement for me. I am not trying to jinx it, so I am going to keep it to myself for now. Will definitely update everyone if this "thing" goes through as planned.

I also owe a huge favor to my "life coach" lol. She has been helping me in many ways, I can't even say thank you enough even though I do it five times a day for the rest of my life. But like I promised her, I will return the favor when I am in the position to do so.

So last night, was the first time I went clubbing since NYE. Not only I have been busy with work, but also with other personal things that have been effecting my mood. Problems still exist, but I had to come out and show some love to my homegirl, D, who was celebrating her 21st. I was definitely a little rusty in my club game, but had great time nonetheless.

Definitely none of this last night. haha..



So today, its a chill Sunday. Got up late, clean up the room, get cooking, listening to my fav. playlists and updating the blog. Today's menu is all the healthy stuff, especially after one too many shots last night. Don't get the wrong idea, its still me that is cooking, so its still gotta be delicious. Decided to have some Alaskan Salmon and Maine Lobster, since I have not been eating seafood lately.

Marinating the poor sea critters.


Grilled: just how I like it.


Bon Apetite:


Can't forget the Modelo, best beer ever.

How to pour your beer?

So I have been out a couple of times and everytime I get a beer and started pouring, people around me always complain. They said that I do not know how to pour, let alone drink a beer. The way I pour it, is just straight up from the bottle or can to the glass. No tilting the glass, no pouring in slowly; straight up! So I would have about at least an inch of "head" or foam.

The reason that I am doing this is because, back where I came from, this is how we do. We-my people, feel that if it does not have any head, its not a beer. Apparently, people in the U.S. feel differently about it. And now I am going to prove that I am right.

And for the rednecks that say, stop being a wuss, and drink it like a man-straight from the bottle, I gotta tell you that your manly way is wrong.

http://www.maxim.com/stuff/beer/85720/get-your-head-right.html

Frisco Week

Wednesday:
Wow... what a weekend. Started early on Wednesday night. Met up with Wen, Dat, Kfed and Wall-E at BonCon. There is no doubt that these Koreans know how to make their chicken. On top of that they have a mini keg for $20 that was more than enough for the four of us. The keg looks exactly like the one on Donkey Kong Game. At the end, I thought we were gonna smash it on each others' heads lol. I planned on going home and pack for the San Fran trip but that didn't happen-smh. Great time!!

Thursday:
Thursday night. Went to Jackson's at Reston Town Center right after work for Tommy Gunn's happy hour. Had an awesome time hanging out with the USIS crew. Met a couple of cool people from the office who always pass be the cuby, but never know their names-should've introduced myself early (geez Steve!). Definitely a great night to start the early weekend. It was soo much fun, I almost forgot that I had a flight to San Fran to catch up. Say goodbye to everyone, ran to the parking garage feeling all tipsy and rushed to Fairfax pick up lil buro then hit up Dulles. Barely made it to the airport, but we did phew!

Feeling pumpd since I was about to pop my Frisco Cherry! and I had two people who know how to have a good time coming along. It was an overnight flight, but I was soo tipsy and wired I could not even sleep. Did not wanna miss the plane passing over the bay at night overlooking the nicely lit city. Definitely worth it. Out of all the big cities that I been too, Frisco definitely the brightest one at night.

Touch down, get the luggage, find a taxi and get to the hotel. But the night was not over. Even tho it was 5am Eastern Time on Friday (2am local time) we had to stop by 7-11 and get some more alky cause you know how we do, especially with Wall-E with me hah..

Friday:
Friday morning, after four hours of sleep, we were greeted by a nice ocean view out the window.

Can't wait to start exploring the city, but before that you all know me, I need to get my breakfast on before I can start the day.

Before we left San Fran, everyone who has been there always talks about Mama's Breakfast joint.

They claimed its the best place in town, so as a food connoisseur I had to do it. By 730am, we were there and the line outside had started. We had about ten people ahead of us. Yeah...this joint gotta be good. It was a mom and pop shop kinda restaurant with less than a dozen table inside. It was soo pack, they had to lock the door and let people come in when someone from inside were leaving. It took us over an hour to get a seat. Get to the line right by the glass that separate the guests and the cook. We could see all the freshly made breads, pancakes, omelets etc. They even serve a crab pancake!!! who does that?!?! Well the Friscos do.

Ordered my Western omelet along with strawberry pancakes and a glass of mocha. Awesome!

On top of that they have this homemade syrup/jam for the pancake, called LollyBerry. It tastes like nothing I've ever taste and I tasted many types of jams in my life!! Let's just say it was more Jammin' than Bob Marley.

We did alotta walking exploring the city and shopping at Union Square for the rest of the day. Got back to the hotel, trying to chill, but Wall-E wanted to hit the gym, so we did and met up with Wall-E's homegirl NP.
She is definitely the coolest brown girl I know. This girl likes to explore new things, eat everything, knows how to party, have some cute friends-that's always a plus with me haha.. and works at Genentech (me and Genentech has a little bond going on since it was my last and biggest research paper during my last semester at GMU).

We get ready, met up with NP's girls and hit up the club. It was definitely another night without sleep in San Francisco. Had a good time, even tho I think San Fran needs to step up their club game. It was nothing compare to DC. I been around Miami, LA and SD, and Frisco's clubs is like comparing DC clubs with Mia clubs.
Oh and they don't have 24 hr place where we can grub after the club other than a donut place. Got back to the hotel with the girls, and everyone just passed the f out.

Saturday:
Saturday was spent strolling around the Market Place for some street vendors, fresh food and searching for Jamba Juice. They had so many things at Pier 2, where the building right by the Bay bridge.


Alot of awesome food vendors, street performers



and we get a little Wine Guide from our boy Wall-E.
We found out that he's like a walking wikipedia, cause he knows everything. This made lil buro give the title "the most interesting man" aka DosEQuis lol.

Went cruising down Golden Gate before we get back to the hotel and passed out...again.
Sunday: Spent the whole day at Japan Town. The main reason we came visit Frisco, WekFest! Its one of the most anticipated car exhibit in the West Coast.
Not gonna bore all the non car enthusiast, so I'm not gonna write anything about it. But I was pretty much over dose on dope-ness and hella flush.
Fast forward to night time, went to dinner at Juban. It is definitely one of the best Japanese food I have ever tasted. Get a chance to taste a little bit of Kobe beef. If you don't know, it is the mother of all beef. For a slap of 8oz, usually cost around 80 to 200 bux depends on where you go. Let me tell you that, it does not taste like beef at all, all the meat and the fat just melt in your mouth. Soo goood!!!


And it would not be complete without a glass of my favorite Sapporo :)
Fillet Mignon:
Due to excessive amount of walking during the day, after dinner we decided to stay in and party at the hotel. We have to improvise since the hotel does not have fridge in the room.
Yes, its a trash can/bucket filled with ice and beers.
Monday:
Our last day in Frisco. There is no better way to close this trip by exploring the infamous Alcatraz.
The famous Al Capone:
George "Machine Gun" Kelly:
The Hole:
Inmates:
Surprisingly breathtaking view from Alcatraz:
We did not spent as much time as we wanted to on Alcatraz cause we had to catch the flight back home. But now I know why people who have gone to San Francisco said that they met gentle people and left a piece of their heart. I will definitely go back to ...San...Fran...Cis..CO!